Wishes

So I have been thinking a lot the past little bit and I thought I would share. Life can throw us curve balls and sometimes they seem unbearable. I was reading what my sister had to say about trials and it is all so true we are all dealt trials to deal with in our life and it is how we handle them that matters. When I start to get frustrated and ask "why me?" I have to stop and think that it could be worse. I put Tink on here to send out some holiday wishes and hope. I have always thought that letting yourself believe in a little magic and imagination is never a bad thing. God works miracles through a little magic, hope, love and faith. I want to send everyone that is having trials a little miracle. I hope that you all can find some way to see the good through the trials. I know that if I didn't I would not be able to get throughout a day. My thoughts and prayers are always with you. I am always here if anyone of you just need an ear to listen. Let us all remember what this upcoming holiday is about. Love you all!

Welcome Burke

Just wanted to say how excited I am to have a new nephew. I was able to see him last night and I enjoyed seeing the cute little thing. Hopefully I spelled his name right I will have to make sure lol. Well here is the little cutie 

Halloween Pictures

Sam as Roo

Sophie as Piglet

Tay as Minnie Mouse

Brynn as a Bunny

Gavin as a Bat

Chandler as Motorcross Rider

Connor as D Williams

Me as Pippi and Devon as a Hobo

HMM

Ok so I thought I would just say Hi. I don't have anything very fun to report and I really need to get on my other computer for some pictures to put on here but I can't ever seem to find much time. Just thought I would let you all know that I am doing well still fighting to walk but im getting there slowly :o) 

Update

Ok,

  So well I have decided that I don't know how you all are so good at keeping up on your blogs. I seemed to be much better at it when I wasn't working at home lol. Which is silly because during the down times it really shouldn't be that hard. I guess I just don't feel like my life is all that interesting lol . Things are still going well for me. Every day my leg is getting stronger. I am hoping to be walking on my own by the end of the year. Hopefully it will be possible :o) Halloween was really fun this year it was nice to have our two additions in the family (Sophie and Sam) be there. It was a fun holiday. I always love seeing the kids dressed up so cute. Me well I went as Pippi Longstocking and lets just say.. the hair thing.. not that easy to do lol But I had fun. I love to dress up even now being 28 I think that it is totally fun to get to be someone else for a day :o) I will put on my Pictures later on today.  Well I better get back to work. Yay me ha ha

It is time to do the twins first year pictures soon so I thought I would so a look back to when they couldn't even sit up yet! Aren't they cute :)

Ok Ok

Sorry I have to say that I have been a total slacker at updating my blog. I thought i would right a quick update for you all that actually come to my site :) I am still working and it is going pretty well. It is nice to work from home although sometimes I find it difficult to separate home and work now. I am going to Physical Therapy twice a week. Once is a pool session and one is a land appointment. It is hard work but hopefully it will get me better and walking without assistance. The boys are great and me and Devon are doing well. He just got a webcam so he pops in on me while I am working and I love it! 

Update

Ok so I am now working again and I was very lucky to get to work from home. I love it because it has made the stress of coming back to work not near as high. My boys are really funny they don't understand why they can't just be with me and play all day long. Eventually through out the day I let them come in here and Kota immediately  jumps on my lap and settles in. It is pretty cute actually. Amazingly I have a boyfriend again lol. He is awesome and  I love him tons. He has liked me working from home because I have more motivation to get out of the house once I am done with work, which means less begging lol. I don't know where are future is headed for the two of us right now but I like where it is going so far :o) I am trying to get in to get some pictures together and once I do I will post them so you all can see. Got to run I will update more later

Really trying

Me with my two helpers :o)

I just thought I would send out a post letting you all know that I have heard your pleas for more blogging and I really am going to try my best to do more of it. As many of you understand sometimes life seems like it is just flying by and you can't seem to catch up. Well that is totally my life right now. Progress with my health has come to a point where there is not much improvement on a daily basis and that is hard to deal with. But I have to keep the Faith that I will overcome all of this and walk freely again. I want to thank all of you for your support because without it I don't think I would be able to keep fighting. 

Hawaii Aug '08

Back from Hawaii

So we are back from Hawaii. Me personally I am totally having Hawaii blues. I want to go back. It is so Beautiful there that one week is just not enough. I thought I would share a few pictures with you all. Aloha! First Here are some of the Taylor Tots on the First day....

Connor

Chandler Being a goof

Gavin

And Brynn... She was running from the camera

The Fun of Getting Food... It was quite a long day of getting the essentials so we didn't all Starve. and let me tell ya... Man the food is expensive.

Sophie and Sam Chilling while Niki Checks the Ingredients

The Ko O'lina

I will add more into a slideshow..In progress now

HOME!! and story

I just thought that I would let you all know that I am finally home. It has been a long four months and I am glad to be home with my babies but man is it a wake up call.
For all you that don't know on March 10th I had a seizure type spasm out that acted like a stroke. Basically I was paralysed on my left side. It even affected my speech. So after fighting to find a place that could take me to get the care I needed and the Therapy to get me better I ended up in to a SNF ( Skilled Nursing Facility) Needless to say it was the last place I wanted to be and the first place I needed to be. When I went in there I was thinking oh I will be out in a month two tops for sure.... Boy was I wrong. I did speech therapy, Occupational therapy and physical therapy. Then my insurance decided to be dumb and pulled because my progress was too slow in there eyes therefore I was never going to get better. With the help from My mom and my Dad I was able to stay there self pay even though it was an absurd thing to have to pay out of pocket for... but the choice was to go home or not ready or stick it out and see if we could get me walking and home. Thanks to the wonderful help of my Therapist I got to a point that they helped me to gain back movement, strength, hope, and the ability to walk with a walker and a KAFO brace (Knee ankle foot Orthodox). I now speak normally and I am walking. So armed with this we are going to appeal the insurance company to see if we can get them to pay showing my progress. I will let you know the updates and outcome of this when I know more.
So four Months later and some hard life lessons and some trials of Patience, stress of not having a job, stress of the cost and not totally being able to do things on my own I am home.
I am far from done with the process of being independent but I am home and no longer paying money we can't pay to a place that helped me to get better but also showed me the sadness of life and loss but still greatly appreciate.
I want to thank all of you for your prayers and support. I would tell you all that I still need all I can get especially with the struggles of the rest of this process. I love you all, I am glad to be home and if you have questions please do not hesitate to ask.
Peace out
your bionic friend and family member

Almost Home

I just thought that I would write and tell you all that I will hopefully be coming home at the end of next week if not then the beginning of the next. I am getting a brace called a KAFO that is my ticket out of the nursing home and on my way to walking freely.

Coming soon

I just wanted to let you know that I will be starting to post again soon. I have been in a SNF ( skilled Nursing Facility) for four months and unfortunately having been able to do much on the computer since I am not home. I will give you all the wonderful info about whats been going on here soon. I will be leaving here soon because of money issues, so I am not better yet. However I will be able to get back to blogging and back to some of my normal life. Just wanted to give you an update so you don't give up on me and my wonderful blog lol. More to come soon......

Pictures of the kids

I thought I would Share some recent pictures of the kids... They are so stinking cute!!

Taylor being cute on the couch

Brynn so Cute!
Gavin
Chandler
Connor
Sophie and Sam

Home!!!

As you might have noticed my blog has been very neglected. But I just thought I would let you all know that I am back home from the hospital and so so so glad to be home!!! Miss talking to you all!!

Hawaii

Ok So I finally put on some Hawaii pictures. I have more and will try to change them later, but I could only put on so many. Sorry they aren't much.. but there was only so much I could do from wheelchair. Enjoy

The Kids as babies

Ok So when I was getting pictures off of my old computer I thought that it would be fun to see each of the kids as babies at about the same age.

Here is Connor....

Chandler

Gavin

Taylor

Brynn

Sophie

and Sam

New Furnace

Yay! We are warm again. Ok, so my furnace went out and my house keep getting colder and colder, but I didn't realize that the furnace was shot for about a week. So needless to say my house has been in a range of 49 degrees to 55... Burr I thought I would share because Dakota the little punk would not leave my side or the blankets... So I had to double up his cloths so he would stop shaking... Can we say dog... or wimp lol. But I love the cute thing to death. I took the cutest picture of him all layered up but can't load it yet.. So keep watching and hopefully I will add it.. It is cute so I couldn't resist. Needless to say, I have learned a lesson about the importance of a furnace and have been baptized by fire. So a few dollars (HaHa) and several hours later we have Warmth :o)

Denver with the cold..... then theres Dakota... lol 

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Here is one of the pictures of him hiding under the blankets lol With his pouty eyes

Need Help

Ok so I am not doing well... I totally hate my Ex right now and how he treated me. I am so mad but I can't get over it. I use to be upset and was just sad about things until he started treating me like crap. Now I am just mad that I still care and that he could be so mean. I really need stuff to do to get my mind off of it. Any Ears out there that don't mind some crying please let me know. And any suggestions on what to do, or how to get rid of these feelings are strongly needed. Sorry to post me being upset but I don't know what to do.. HELP!

Twins

Here is Me with Sam and Sophie Two days Old

Me and Sam

Me and Sophie

Sam 

Sophie

Engagement

Ok, So I have been avoiding this subject, mainly because I don't think I was letting it sink in. But In case you guys have not heard, My engagement was called off. So sorry no excuse to come to Utah this year :o( Was not my decision but it does as of yesterday seem to be final and not something that we will work out. When it happened that was discussed but I really think that I can't even try to reconcile it and deserve more. Love you all and thanks for the support that has been given to me.

Flash Back

Ok so I was going through my pictures and came across some from a long time ago and couldn't resist posting them....


Here is Chandler on his First Christmas

                                                                Connor Christmas 2000

Then Adam and the Boys Christmas 2000.....

.....And Connor and Chandler Christmas 2000

         

Madness

Ok, so I have been going through my pictures and loading them up, so Sorry if I start to bombard ya'll with pictures. I just had to get some of the old and then the new.. so more will be on shortly. maybe even by the time you are reading this. And yes... alot of the pictures are of my nieces and Nephews.. but Hey.. you can only have so many of my children before your bored. This blog has been addicting. I have had my My space for about a year but since I set it to private, I figured I should do something that more of my family can access. And needless to say I have been on every day so far lol. 

Pictures

Ok, So I finally got a little more on here. My computer decided it didn't want to upload pictures.. So I cheated and used my lull at work to get them uploaded. 

My Boys

 

Dakota.. Isn't he Cute :o)

                                                       Denver First Snow at the House

Away from the Apartment and free

          Me and My Boys 

      My First and Current House

Well here it goes

Ok, so I am going to be brave and see how well I can keep up on this Blog thing. I can't promise much, but I hope that you all enjoy what I do give.